When I do something scary or stressful, as was asked by today’s Daily Prompt, I like to do it alone. I love my family and friends, of course, and I like knowing that they’re supporting me, but beyond that, I’d prefer to be alone.
In a tense or stressful moment, I am building up as much strength inside me as I can and I don’t want to be distracted by other people. Like, if I’m upset, I want to be alone to cry ugly without worrying about bring judged (which I would and do – it’s called cry ugly for a reason.)
This has been a problem with this blog, actually. I don’t often call upon the greatest resource I have – my existing social resources. What if I suck? What if this is stupid? As the blog as been shaping up, I’ve felt more comfortable with reaching out to them, but I’m still anxious about it.
I kind of feel like I’m standing atop a windy hill with my pants down and that is so much easier to do in front of strangers. (Just trust me on this)
Here is a pragmatic voice of reason: