I went to a new fertility specialist On Wednesday. *
I went into an exam room for an ultra sound, and seeing the ultrasound screen took my breath away.
I Didn't Just Wake Up This Morning With A Craving
I Write To Stop Time
I went to a new fertility specialist On Wednesday. *
I went into an exam room for an ultra sound, and seeing the ultrasound screen took my breath away.
If we were having coffee, you would comment on pictures you had seen on my Facebook feed of our visit to Skagit to see the tulips.
As I’ve written before, I had reservations when I got pregnant about actually having a baby, but after prayer and meditation, I began to believe that parenting was something I could do, something that I would even want to do and that I needed to have faith. In God. In myself. In her. In other people.
Her delivery was the first (the hardest?) application of this faith.
Continue reading “The First Time I Walked On Trembling Feet – Wee One’s Birth Story”
Almost a year ago, I reblogged a post entitled “I Write to Stop Time.” It is in this spirit that I sit down to write tonight, one week the night before my daughter is born. Â One week. I want to stop time. Â I want to freeze it now.
Wee One just dropped this week, and while the rest of this pregnancy has been a breeze, I’m starting to have some of the difficulty that other women have. Not that that’s a good thing, but I know it stems from her growing strong! Go me for giving her a good environment to grow in!
When i feel her move, I like imagining what she looks like and what she’s experiencing. Â What does she think of the music she can hear? Can she feel my hand push on a spot or tickle her foot?
When my husband goes to Wendy’s, he always brings me a Frostie. Â Even when I don’t ask for one he brings me one, because he says he heard Wee One ask for it.
I’m feeling the Braxton-Hicks get stronger. (Not that this is a good thing, but wow!)
I’m crying at all the schmaltzy “mommy” things like I never did before. And I’m not even embarassed.
I”m getting things wrapped up at work to take my leave – I just decided tonight that it’s going to be sooner than I originally thought.
I’m less afraid of the idea of sacrificing things for her, and even looking forward to the trade off of her snuggles in exchange for something less pleasant.
I’m looking forward to the torrent of love I get to pour over her and wrap her in.
This is the best thing I never knew I wanted, and I don’t want it to pass too soon.
Before I begin, let me say that I know I am not the only woman on the planet who has ever been pregnant. There is nothing revolutionary about this in the grand scheme of humanity, but it’s pretty remarkable to me.
My body is amazing.
It begins and ends with love.
When I first learned I was pregnant, I was lost; overwhelmed by swirling thoughts of anxiety and fear. I sought insight from dear friends and internet strangers, and one idea from these searches struck me: No matter the fear or anxiety or dread I felt, this Wee One was created by the stong and beautiful love I am lucky enough to share with Cohiba.
That you learn when your life is going to change. That you can pinpoint the moment your life will change. Yesterday, Cohiba and IÂ got some of that news. Continue reading “It’s not everyday…”
I think I’ve talked before about the horrible Doom’s Day advice I’ve gotten since I learned about the Wee One coming, advice that fit comfortably into my jacked ideas of motherhood.
But then there’s this. After I started feeling her and I began to get excited about her, I started hoping that maybe it would be more like this.
When I was pregnant, everyone was all about âwarningâ me about what was coming next. I walked around much of those ten (letâs face it, pregnancy is ten, not nine, months) absolutely terrified. The warnings flew at me from every angle â in the checkout line at Target, on the street, slipping my shoes on and walking out of the yoga studio. Warnings, warnings everywhere about what was to come â from the excruciating, mind-numbing pain of childbirth to the shell of my former self I was about to become once I had her. There were times I felt like a prisoner on death row, trying to force myself to enjoy some tiny luxury despite my size and discomfort, because if you asked around, apparently my petty joys would be ending pretty soon!
âEnjoy your husband now â youâll be so consumed by the baby you wonât spend any time alone togetherâŚ
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