Fireworks

July 3, 2021 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

I feel like I need to write tonight. Maybe an early Weekend Coffee Share. Maybe a Weekend White Claw share. (A WC share. Don’t mock; it’s a light something to drink in the summer.)

Fireworks are going off around me, and I kind of feel bad. When I was in the hospital for my gallbladder a few years ago, it was on July 3rd and 4th. I was on a floor for pre-op patients, but they also brought brought up patients in psychiatric crisis, too.

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Did You Color My Lenses?

May 6, 2021 ~ Sahara ~ 1 Comment

I got some news tonight. It might be nothing, it might be something.

With apologies for being so vague, I’m not ready to share the details. But it manifested itself in one of those phone calls/conversations that comes with News. News that can Change Things. Hopefully, you only have a handful of those in your life. Conversations that draw a line between Before and After.

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Thoughts Upon Watching The Most Recent Little Women

December 6, 2020December 20, 2020 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

I just finished watching Little Women, the more recent one. Oh, now my heart.

The 1995 one was very dear to me, and watching this one made me remember when I saw the old one-what life was like then and how different it is now.

I’m also watching it with the eyes of a mother, and the eyes of someone who has now seen 25 years pass. It’s bittersweet, and I cried ugly when Beth died.

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To The Man Who Almost Hit Me Tonight And Other Thoughts

August 12, 2020April 2, 2021 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

Dick. You should have slowed down more. I thought you were slowing down more. I thought you had seen me and were slowing down to turn and let me go and were just doing that rolling slow thing. Then I realized you fucking weren’t and were even gonna speed up. Fuck.

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A Day In The Life

November 13, 2019November 13, 2019 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

A day in the life of Sahara, at least during the week.

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Livin’ Life

April 28, 2019July 14, 2019 ~ Sahara ~ 1 Comment

I think I’ve told you guys about the period of time I was a door canvasser with a political action group. I’d spend five hours a day knocking on doors, and follow it with a couple of hours of drinking. Crash somewhere, maybe home. Repeat. It was a lot of fun for awhile.

: Playing drums in a rooftop jam session. The guy bending over, Andy, ODed a few years later. Livin’ life.

During this time, spending every day with hippies and slackers, when people asked how we were we would say noncommittally, “Oh, ya know. Livin’ life.” Which meant we weren’t doing shit.

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Do You Create A Life On Autopilot?

November 7, 2018November 7, 2018 ~ Sahara ~ 3 Comments

This is another post I started and abandoned, probably in late 2015.

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I found a blog that referred to going through life on auto-pilot. Before these big changes of a baby and a move, I felt like I was doing this, going through life on auto-pilot.

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A Need To Daydream

September 24, 2018September 24, 2018 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom. Soren Kierkegaard

I have been struggling for the past few days, again teetering on the edge of an existential crisis, similar to the one I had in the hospital this summer. I have been dizzy with the freedom of this life, and with the finite nature of it.

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11/12 Challenge of 2018

January 17, 2018January 17, 2018 ~ Sahara ~ Leave a comment

Every year, I set a certain number of “challenges,” or projects to accomplish. As the year goes on, I update how I’m going on the challenges, and write about a couple of them. I would love for you to join me! I could only come up with 10 for this year, though I might add some as the year progresses.

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