Whenever I see myself in a photo or video, or when I hear my voice on a recording, I’m surprised. I don’t look or sound like I think I do, so both of them are jarring and, frankly, unpleasant.
It’s actually a sad realization for me. I see a picture of myself and am almost automatically repulsed. Actually disgusted. Then I’m mad at myself for hating myself so much, for judging myself so harshly, and I’m embarrassed. Then I tell myself that I’m not the only one who feels like this.
What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?