Someone I Used To Be

“I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?” Stephen King

This quote becomes especially poignant on this, the day of my 20th high school reunion. I’m not there, obviously, but I wish I was.  Every time I’m with someone from high school (except for My husband Cohiba (Have I told you we met in high school?)) I remember someone I used to be.

I didn’t know it at the time, but I was pretty awesome and I have some fantastic friendships to show for it. 

Not that who I am now isn’t awesome and not that I want to go back, but I do think about how I will look back on friendships I now have.

Like with my Ren Fair friends, I have fun with them in a way I never have with anyone else. Or with my mom friends, same thing. When I look back or visit with them again, I will be reminded of the person I am right now, and I will miss her.

It is bittersweet, and it is good.







One thought on “Someone I Used To Be

  1. The older we get, the fewer friends we stay close to and with kids and family life, it becomes harder and harder to maintain all the friendships that we would have wanted to maintain 😦 I often find myself missing my school days for just these reasons. I love my life now and don’t regret my choices, but, like you said, reminiscing about school days is bittersweet

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